Sunday, March 10, 2013

Pretending to Not Be Great

Lately at work I have felt less and less like myself. I went back and reviewed the reasons that I agreed to take this job and recognized that while I have had some success I feel like I am still missing on the desire to find the thing that will help me be great.

My current role is fairly outside of my natural or even learned skillset, interest area and frankly personality type. This causes me to view my role rather negatively. I don’t feel like I am necessarily bad, but I want GREATNESS. Greatness to me is teaching others how to be consistently good in a way that helps produce a fuller life. I am just not motivated anymore by my own personal achievement. Helping others and impacting teams or overall work cultures is much more motivating for me.

I feel like I am being forced to be Clark Kent in my current role, when I know I am actually Superman on the inside. In Kill Bill Vol 2 just before the final scene between Bill and Bunny, played by David Carradine and Uma Thurman, Bill goes into a monologue about how Clark Kent was Superman’s alter ego and not the other way around. He was born Superman and he pretended to be a regular Joe.  Bill didn’t bring this up but it is relevant to my point, that Superman eventually reached a point where who he was became so apparent that he didn’t need to be Clark Kent anymore.

I don’t feel like I have had to be someone different than I am to succeed or blend in within my personal or professional life. However I have known for a while that if I was all of myself at one time that I could overwhelm people. But pretending to not be great is starting to take a toll on me and today is where it stops. I fully understand that some may be offended if do in fact operate in 100% of who I am, but as Andre’ Gide so eloquently put it, “it is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you’re not” and I am not okay with pretending not to be great ANYMORE. (queues up Meek Mill-Dreams and Nightmares)

Not sure if I have a new frequency in mind, just knew I needed to get this written down. Look out for the next post.

Monday, March 5, 2012

48hrs In...The BAY

This was more like 96hrs but I pulled out the highlights so that if you had 48hrs to spend you could get plenty done in the Bay Area of California. This was just before Christmas.

530pm Touchdown at San Jose airport grab my car and proceed to hear Rack City and The Motto for the 1st out of 973 times and I enjoy it. Rack City Bish! As I speed from the airport into the city. 

Sidenote: I went to the Tyga Concert last week in Atlanta and he put on a great show and this photo is from that show. Special shout out to the kids I saw use an iphone for the backlight to breakdown the green stuff for a funny smelling cigarette. Who says kids now a days dont use ingenuity?! 

630pm PST Tlaquepaque Taquiera (pronounced tockey pockey)-Best Mexican Food I have ever had before not to mention I had this lime flavored beer  that was something else...Outside of Blue Moon I am not really much of a beer drinker but this shyt right here, this shy right here…was everything that the wind down of a day is supposed to be. My food a tamale, a soft taco, it was just the perfect way to get the night started.

830pm Watch the Throne Tour… AGAIN. This whole trip was one of those decide do moments, considering I was laying on my sofa a week prior thinking I would like to see the show again and then I just went. This tour could do no wrong in my eyes. Kanye did say something that stuck with me: 
Everyone is telling you be humble, be humble, when is the last time someone told you to be amazing?
Watch the clip above for a recap of some of the milestones and precedents this tour set from a digital marketing perspective.

Google tour(Mountain View/Paolo Alto)-small back story I didn’t get the call until the night before I went on my trip that this came through.  Which made this that much more fun. How would you act if had an opportunity to do something you have wanted to do for about 10 years and just know its going to work out.? Considering You cant just walk up to Google-Plex and say I want to have a tour. After all this is a place of business, but I had another person in my crew help me out with this. 

Google is everything that it says it is. It looks and feels like a college campus. My tour guide Justin was pretty great, he seemed to know a good amount of people and knew the campus really well.  I learned a bunch and had a good lunch and even bought a Google Chrome watch.I had a blast.

Improv Comedy(San Jose)-Wayne Brady Improv show. Think like Who’s Line is it Anyway. This was a lot of fun! I didn’t get to participate because I naively chose a balcony seat, but he is definitely good at what he does. Everything from Freestyling random words from the crowd to using participants as props. It was certainly a great experience.

Santana Row- this area reminds me of Georgetown without all of the walking. I picked up a few items and saw a really cool vintage Ferrari.

Pier food(San Francisco- I had this pork sandwich that made a slow tear come out of my eye when I bit into it.  I didn’t know pork could taste this good but it did. Lots of great food and it was Christmas time so lots of people walking around giving yuletide cheer. 

Red eye out on Saturday-saw the box score that Dallas was winning and realized so was I. 

Wheels up and Lights out. 

Monday, February 20, 2012

Judge Your Life By Your Sundays

Today is my first day of work in my new role as a Management Consultant. For the last 24 or so consecutive Sundays I have been excited about the possibilities of what Monday or any day of the week will bring since I quit.

Today is also President’s day which means some of you may be fortunate enough to have the day off and are going to truly enjoy it. However there are others who are dreading today, because it is simply Monday and they must go into work.

This feeling does not start the moment the alarm clock goes off on Monday morning. It begins the night before and its almost like being sick. I know this feeling too well and it was one of the catalysts for me quitting my job. However it was some comments from a teacher of mine that really pushed the point home.

During my summer semester, I had a Cost Accounting Professor, who is one of the sweetest and most bubbly people I had ever met. I thought this was funny, because a bubbly accountant is sort of a paradox like an extroverted engineer and I knew I could learn from her.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Ask Better Questions to Get Answers

You sit through enough presentations or meeting and they end with someone saying “I would like to open up the floor for questions and remember there are no stupid questions” While there might not be stupid questions there are definitely better questions. Voltaire says “judge a man by his questions rather than his answers” Here is an opportunity to be judged more favorably.

Avoid Google questions. If it can be googled, why ask it? If you are going to ask a question I assume you are looking for a deeper level of insight or perhaps answer a question that has a degree of subjectivity to it. Keep this in mind and you will have a better opportunity to ask a good question.

Don’t fear the obvious question. Listening to a person talk can be difficult, even more so, when you miss a key concept such as what the acronym WTF means in a meeting where it is used 745 times. If you don’t know something and recognize it as important early and you need to know immediately. Ask so that you can keep up.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

48hrs In...Miami

I intended on just writing on the beach, relaxing and catching a Heat Game, that changed from the moment I landed...
4PM-Arrive in Miami. Hear about a party I may want to go to at Club Amnesia. I call one of the key members of my crew about access. Response is "I got you"
5PM-Head to The Clevelander. There is always something going on at the Clevelander. This time it was a "fashion show" I was more entertained by my burger, but what ever. Once that wraps up, I decide to go for a walk on the beach and just reflect on the past year and all that is staring in front of me for the next 3-5 years and start to break it down into quarters. 
10PM-Decide I need to laugh and head to Miami Improv to catch a really great show with Tony Rock. Who knew this dude was so funny as a stand-up act? His opening acts were good as well. Small gripe though. There is a two drink minimum, but the menu clearly says two items so I ordered some not so great food and still had to purchase drinks.
130AM-Arrive at King of Diamonds (KODs). I was greeted by police in full swat gear. You know the type of stuff Will Smith and Martin Lawrence wore in Bad Boys II? In the line behind me arrive 4 or 5 girls who are extremely uptight in their conversation.  So uptight that I am considering introducing legislation to ban NOT FUN GIRLS (NFGs) from all said “establishments” Will you join me in this quest?